I always need people like Matt to ask those questions of me which I never think to ask myself. Why did I spend an entire evening of my life preparing this floppy? Was there any justification for my having wasted five hours late at the office, five full hours my fiancé would have loved to have claimed for herself? Of course!
After all, the disk on Matt's desk was clearly labeled, "Win95 on a floppy, baby!" Don't you see? The floppy disk, which was undeniably pitiful, inadequate, good only for the transmission of small files and boot-sector viruses, was now doing a job way beyond its job description. I had stuffed the essence of Windows95 onto a single bootable floppy diskette, a task that could be likened to stuffing a grizzly bear into a cat carrier. All it had was one font, a single mouse cursor, File Manager, and about 3kb of free space (enough room for a half-page of Word text). Like all floppy disks, it was effectively useless, and I loved it, as I have loved so many anachronisms in my life.
Perhaps a floppy disk doesn’t seem so much of an anachronism. Well, how about a single-tape answering machine? Mine wasn’t just any single tape answering machine; it was an AT&T 2600. It had been thrown away by Charlie, an old smokestack of a man my former boss occasionally had business with. Does it matter that I was 19 at the time? Nah. This could just as easily have happened three days ago. “Charlie, what’s wrong with this answering machine?” I asked, having spotted the sad, forlorn thing peering up at me from his trash can. Charlie pulled the cigarette from his cracked lips and rasped, “Nothing. I got a new one. You want it? You can have it.” At this point in my life, I was living in my parent’s basement and, as such, actually did have a need for an answering machine to service a new phone line I had recently installed as part of a futile attempt at feigning independence. So I took it home, put a tape in it and proceeded to use it for the next eight years. It could play back messages to you over the phone if you punched in the right number and, lucky for me, that magic number was printed on the belly of the thing. I remember calling it at various times during the day, listening to my own recorded pleas for callers to leave a message, and then I would punch in that number. Usually, there were no messages, but I just loved the act of using that old machine. Lord help me, I would actually tell people about that thing as if it were a pet! I’d go on at length about how reliable it was and how it used a full-size cassette so I’d never have to buy one of those micro things that cost twice as much. People who actually called me would get annoyed because of the excessive length of its screeching beep. Sometimes it seemed to become confused and would play its tape to whomever might have called me; on these occasions it was likely to play old messages which had been long forgotten. This quite disturbed my girlfriend Heather (now my wife) when it once played to her a lengthy message left me by an old lover two years earlier. Very embarrassing, but nothing was bad enough to make me discard my beloved answering machine. It wasn’t until earlier this year that I came home from work to discover a new machine in its place. My fiancé had thrown my trusty, old, faux wood-grain AT&T2600 away andreplaced it with a sleek, green, metallic, tapeless, digital answering machine... It works... I guess... I’m not angry at Heather for throwing it away. But I will never love this new machine like I loved that 2600, which had loyally performed its job years after it should have been thrown away. I can no longer proudly tell people about how old my answering machine is, how I fished it out of the garbage, or about its economical, full-sized cassette tape. This new answering machine will never have a story to tell. |
There is, in me, a deep fondness for things, like that washer and dryer set that keep going when no one would expect them to. There is, likewise, a deep affection for things that are being used to reliably perform some task that they would not be expected to be able to do. Sometimes an object combines both of these properties; that is when I am most likely to become infatuated. One such item is a certain hard working computer at a medium sized multinational client of mine. It is an old Gateway Pentium 75Mhz, which is now five and a half years old. Dwelling inside this computer is a seven year old, full-height, 5.25", 1GB hard drive and accompanying controller. For those who are not technical, suffice it to say that this is an old computer with an even older hard drive. This machine handles every single Internet message sent into, or out of, that company’s network. Its name is HQIMail, and it has performed this job for four years. HQIMail handles over 15,000 messages a day, a fact I know well because it sends me a report every morning to tell me how it’s been doing. It is now older than any other computer in the main building. It may be older than any computer in that company. I think about HQIMail all the time, and he makes me happy. What is it that makes me love these....things? The examples go on and on. Examples such as my car, so small yet so capable. Or my old AOC television, which I rescued from a TV repair shop for $125-just look at that picture, I would say to anyone visiting my house! I could talk at length about my Fischer stereo amplifier, which even now is playing jazz for my pleasure, eight years after I bought it from a clearance rack. Gladly, I would talk the ear off any unfortunate passersby about my 1952 Baldwin piano if given half a chance. I love its ugly, plain, Bauhaus-esque shape, and loud, bright tone, but I couldn’t define why, exactly. I don’t think it’s possible to ask why anyone loves anything, since love itself is a confusing idea that cannot be defined well. The fact remains that I have these, well, crushes on things. I experience childish infatuations with whatever is around me, and it happens again and again. It’s still happening. I fell in love with this rolling table-thing in my shop at work today.... but that’s another story. |
It isn't the relish that makes this hot-dog so delicious, its the zeal.
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